July 20, 2021
Dearest Jesus, You said, “You are soon to come to a point in your life when everything will change dramatically from one moment to the next. I will transform you from your present body to your new body that will be able to achieve many feats that you are unable to achieve now. You will join others of My Bride in their transformed bodies and I will send you out two by two to minister to those who don’t yet know Me and to those who once knew Me but put our relationship aside to go back to play in the world.” (2020)
Thank you Lord Jesus for choosing me as part of the Bridal group. I look forward to transformation everyday and be able to be in my new body. I anticipate to help with the outreach. I am in my twenty’s right now, but I am in full-time disability. I am thankful that despite this, You can see a purpose within my disability to help others out. I am the foolish one in this world, but You have seen something in me that others cannot.
I have been hospitalized frequently and have survived much suicide attempts. I have been admitted to the hospital ICU ward thrice, one in December 15-24, 2020, the second in January 3-12, 2021 and the third on May 19-July 3, 2021. I have found Jesus in my hopelessness. I cannot find any meaning to this life, other than having eternal life through Jesus. The three suicide attempts in 2019, July 7 once and July 14 twice, having survived it, I am very thankful in Him.