July 20, 2021
Dearest Jesus, You said, “I want you to know the depth of My love for you and the power of My ability to heal you.” (2020) Thank you Jesus for your deep love for me unconditionally. I believe in Your power to heal me completely. I am learning to trust You more, as You have emphasized in trusting You.
I have been disabled ever since 2017, for five years and onwards, I have been struggling with daily flashbacks of my traumas. There was a sexual trauma back in February 28, 2016 that had triggered all the flashbacks that spanned from my early childhood to adulthood. I had four times of sexual traumas when I was aged 13 and two times of sexual traumas when I was aged 20, another one between 2017-2018 and the most recent was 2020. I am currently on medication for my major depression.
I have always been in faith since early childhood and had accepted Jesus since 2012 December. Many times I have been having strong self-harming intents and suicide attempts, in life threatening situations, but Jesus had never given up on me, despite I have turned away from Him in the past.