July 20, 2021
I was very traumatized in early childhood for no reason and each day the pain had amplified exponentially for no reason. I then found out that I had dissociation from my traumas, while on the other side I was bright and happy without the traumatic memories. I remember one time back in March 2021, I was so unwell that I have collapsed in my doctor’s corridor. I had NDE (near death experiences) and traumagenic out of body experiences for many times.
Jesus said to me, “Jessica is my daughter and I love her dearly. Although she is unwell she is seeking me in her heart and desires to obey Me in all things. I will be with her today while she goes street preaching and I will draw those to her who need the message of My salvation. Please let her know I am with her always, regardless of her feelings, and I will heal her and she can trust Me and rely on Me every moment of her day.” (June 9, 2018) words received from my friend.
I have been to street preaching for quite some years in the past, but right now I am doing it online via writing on websites, due to being extremely unwell. Thank you Jesus that You are with me always, regardless of my feelings. I do look forward to Your healing, as I trust You and rely on You every moment of my day. Many times I have been having urges to self-harm, such as wrist cutting, but I am glad that this habit had been put away as I resisted since January 2021.