July 24, 2021
Dearest Jesus, being born in this generation, the generation of youths had been one of the fiercest set of trials that I had, in order to have a purified-twice heart that I now have. I consider purified twice, just as I had two baptisms, one was in 2012 and another 2019. It seems to be seven years from 2012-2019, then the other set had started from around mid-2019. Please use me as a vessel to help those who have not known You yet. My desire is to help as much as possible.
I know that You are with me, knowing that by walking in faith than sight, pleases You much. This walk is very difficult, because I rely on others for Your words, dreams and visions, but continued to press on. Thank you Jesus for not forsaking me, just as You have said so in the past. I am writing bits by bits, because I am feeling very unwell, though I continue to seek You, knowing there is no hope in this world, without You, for in You there is eternal life and meaning with life and love that I have known all these years from You was very comforting and deeper than anyone could have imagined.