July 21, 2021
Dearest Jesus, please heal my flashbacks of complex traumas and give me the strength to follow You. I am learning my surrender to Your will daily. I have been bullied at school every year from primary to secondary schools and had much sexual traumas, four times when I was thirteen and two times when I was twenty, one in 2017-2018 and another in 2020. I do not have friends locally, because I had been frequently displaced of countries, homes and schools, due to the bullying. However, I consider an advantage that I can spend more time on You, oh Father.
Please purify my heart according to Your will. Please help me to love others like You do. I am trying to move on from my flashbacks, but am struggling daily to do the most basic things. Please give me peace during my great distress right now. Thank You for Your unconditional and deep love towards me and Your keenness to heal me completely. Please help me to trust in You, despite I cannot see You yet, that I can walk by faith and not by sight. Despite I have no friends, thank you for reminding me that You know everything about me, being so close and intimate.